sacrifices to be happy with you
sacrifices to be happy without you
I’m just trying to unwind
packing my suitcases
for the tenth time

one good thing, the turning nights
into days, drinking all hours
came to a stop
another good thing, the tears
piled up and washed out
drained house

sacrifices to find myself again
sacrifices to keep dry from the rain and wind
I’m just trying to unwind
minimize my luggage and give more
drink less and live more
drain house

skirts and sheets
blow swiftly
I left the doors open, for the rain to
rain in
relaxing and taking notes
flexing in my memory
how to be hood again
how to be good again

I won’t lie
I’ve been working all week
doing laundry and organizing
writing letters to my old self
practicing forgiveness
practicing how to learn lessons

sacrifices to be clear with myself
sacrifices to stay clear of dirty rims
shots are called but only to the brim
higher spaces are for breathing
hiking up and keeping focus on my breath
long halls don’t show answers
only passage ways

taking advantage of everything I want
kissing and lighting fires
sacrificing all that it takes
to love me